It is a dream come true. I can’t even explain.
OK so I’m sure anyone who bothers to read is wondering the big question…. what was it like to finally have SEX?
This is a long story, let’s just say… OUCH. Big OUCH. OUCH. OUCH. OUCH. Oooh… OUCH. Oooohh…ouch…ooooh…nohh please more…ooohoucheeeeeee….
It took a while… actually we still can’t do certain positions because I clamp up. It’s still way too tight, which is weird to me because I’m not young! But maybe it never stretched out and stuff and just got harder over time? He says it will loosen over time, I’m like um I hope not?!?! Hehe… but yeah a little bit would be fine so I’m not like crying when it first goes in.
But it’s very fun to try again and again… especially when we were first trying it out… like 5-6 times a day hehehe… I think we both got sore during the honeymoon though, we had to take a break of a day which didn’t work so great at first until it got really bad… so then we just waited a bit heheh.
It was also funny how the first night together, I wanted something special of course, the best hotel and best champagne and all that OF COURSE… been waiting a lifetime! And then it was like huh I don’t get it where does it go exactly? And I’m trying to loosen up I’m trying! And then him practically breaking his d*** jamming it in loll….and me screaming when it started to rip up or something in there (I’m not quite sure what happened, it was like solidly closed which I didn’t get because obviously I have my monthly cycle when stuff comes out of there)…
Oh and I started birth control because he insisted. AWKWARD to get the prescription… being Indian and on a tight schedule before honeymoon of course I went to a doctor friend… avoided doing that, but with stupid health insurance drama in the US, there was no way to get an appointment and pay the stupid co-insurance pay blah blah…
So I had major misgiving about doing BC. I still do. I feel it’s unnatural, I’m so worried about what hormones will do to me, how it will affect my fertility (hellooo!!!)… and all that stuff I’ve read on Roissy and other places about BC messing people up… but the mister really wanted me to do it, insisted it’s fine so what could I do?
Any way that’s it for now… it’s been sooooooo wonderful learning to be a good wifey for my husband. I love him sooo much, more than my life… he’s the awesomest. And what’s funny is all our petty little fights and stupid disagreements fell away once we actually started being together frequently… in person we have no problems with anything, with anything! He makes the decisions, sometimes asks for my input depending… and that’s that.
OK see y’all later… PS I love Roissy’s post today about the pimpette, ahahahahahaha…. loveee it.